I’m so damn tired. Another Black man was shot by police last week. He lived fortunately, but could be paralyzed for the rest of his life. His shooting led to protests throughout his town of Kenosha, Wisconsin. In the midst of these protests, there was a shooting. 2 died, 1 was injured. The alleged shooter is a 17 year old boy. It’s not clear whether he was acting in self defense or if he was there simply to kill people. I didn’t see the videos so I don’t even fucking know. He got arrested and is being charged with murder among other charges.

There is so much going on that I can’t keep up. This week was the republican national convention. I only watched some of it. Last week was the Democrat national convention and I only watched some of that too. I’m so tired of everything. The Democrats are painting the picture that the Republicans are bad and if you don’t vote for them then the country is going to fall into ruin. The Republicans are painting the same picture. What people are failing to realize is that America has always been this way. This country was built on violence and destruction. What’s going on now didn’t start when Trump took office. It’s been building for centuries. Cops have been beating and killing Black people for centuries. Black people have been fighting for justice for centuries. This shit isn’t new. It’s never been new. I’m so tired.

Everyone is worrying about November and getting rid of Trump, but that isn’t going to stop anything honestly. The genie is out of the bottle and there is no putting it back in. We are faced with a possible civil war, a bullshit excuse for an election, hurricanes, wildfires, earthquakes, all in the midst of a goddamn pandemic. Between now and November we don’t know what the fuck will happen. I’m so fucking tired of this shit.