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Mid February Thoughts

I’m still on my deconversion journey. Work is going good. Life is good. I want to get some thoughts off my mind. So much has happened since my last post. We lost Kobe Bryant 💔. The 2020 election coverage is heating up. The primaries are in about two weeks. Dwayne Wade’s daughter came out as transgender 🏳️‍🌈.

  1. Kobe Bryant: on January 26, Kobe, his daughter Gianna, and 7 others died in a plane crash in California. The news sent shockwaves across the country. I grew up watching Kobe play so it was surreal to find out he passed. I’m still shocked that he is gone. What’s even sadder, is that his 13 year old daughter as well as two other 13 year olds and their parents passed away as well. Kobe and Gianna have been laid to rest in a private ceremony already. The televised public memorial service will be on the 24th of this month. That date was picked because Gianna’s jersey number was 2, and Kobe’s number was 24, so 2/24.
  2. 2020 election: the Democratic field is narrowing down. I don’t know if the candidates are able to beat Trump, but I hope so. I’m glad the field is narrowed down though because there was just so many nominees at one point.
  3. Zaya Wade: I am so glad Zaya and her family decided to share this news with us. Dwayne and Gabrielle are doing the right thing by supporting their child. Of course there are naysayers out there who have negative stuff to say, but honestly it’s none of our business what Dwayne and Gabrielle do with their child. Their decision to come out publicly was for everyone who can’t come out. It’s for the families with transgender kids who don’t have the wealth and resources to be out publicly. I applaud their decision to allow Zaya to be who she is. Unconditional love is something that all parents should show their kids. The child didn’t ask to be brought into this world, so the least the parent can do is love them unconditionally. Dwayne and Gabrielle are loving their child unconditionally and I love to see that.
  4. Deconversion: I’m about a month into my deconversion journey. I’m currently reading Misquoting Jesus by Bart Ehrman. I am part of two Facebook groups that are for non-believers and those who are de-converting. I am glad to have found these groups because I live in the Bible Belt and I don’t really have anyone to talk to in real life. I also watch a lot of YouTube videos about atheism and de-converting from religion. Some channels I really enjoy are: GM Skeptic, Cosmic Skeptic, DarkMatter2525, Seth Andrews & The Thinking Atheist, William Jones, Mr. Atheist, and Atheist Experience.

The End of An Era: Goodbye Toys R’ Us

I am sad. Toys R’ Us will be closing their doors today for the final time. Due to bankruptcy, Amazon, Walmart, and other toy retailers, the toy giant had to make the tough decision to close its stores. Store liquidation began in late March and now today is the final day for all US stores. This includes Babies R’ US. There will be no more brick and mortar stores and online purchasing stoped at the end of April. Wow. I remember being excited to go to Toys R’ Us and pick out all my favorite toys. The Christmas catalog that came in the mail every year was also a highlight for me. I am sad to see the end of an era.

More Names, More Pain

It hit close to home this time. Charlotte, NC just a few hours from where I reside. A man, a cop, death.

Keith Lamont Scott, shot yesterday afternoon by a Charlotte police officer. Details are still forthcoming.

Protestors took to the streets last night full of anger and sadness.

Keith Lamont Scott; This picture was taken without permission from the Keith Lamont Scott memorial page. https://www.facebook.com/R.I.PKeithLamontScott/


Just a day after Terence Crutcher was shot by an officer in Tulsa Oklahoma, those details are still forthcoming as well but it appears in the video that Crutcher had his hands up as he stood near the driver side door of his car, another name has been added to the dreaded list.

Terence Crutcher

What has this world come to when it seems you can be killed for any reason by the same people who are supposed to protect you?

Is this racism? Is this a lack of proper training? Is there even an explanation?

At a time where some are angered by athletes not standing for the national anthem, are the same people angry at this? Is this not what Kaepernick said he is choosing to sit down over?

Are there any answers here? This year isn’t over yet and it seems as if there has been one tragedy after another.

Is there any hope left in this world?

Write Where We Belong

Yes you read that right.

Writing is a rewarding challenge. Some days, stories flow out of your head like water and you can’t wait to get it on paper. Other days, you don’t know what to write. You can’t make up your mind about anything.

I’ve kept a personal journal since I was 8 years old. I have always loved writing about my feelings.

I could never fully express myself when I talked so writing about my feelings has always helped me.

As I said in previous posts, I started blogging three years ago as a way to share my feelings and thoughts with others.

Journal writing is like talking to yourself, even though it is healing, I wanted to share my views with other people. Views that couldn’t be expressed in only 140 characters.

So I began this blog. Not knowing much but that I wanted someone to hear me. I wanted someone to know that it is OK to feel. It is OK to express your true emotions.

I come from a world where talking about your feelings or issues that you are passionate about, is sometimes frowned upon.

Your voice is held captive. Your thoughts may race day in and day out, but you can’t talk about it.

You are physically free, but mentally enslaved.

So I wrote. I write. I write to feel. I write to finally free my voice.

We write. As bloggers we take pride in our work. We write to reach out. We are grateful for every like, every comment, every follow, but we know that this is bigger than that.

We know the joy writing brings us. We know the power of our stories.

We are in this space together. Sharing our thoughts one word at a time.

We are write where we belong.



My Muse| Daily Prompt

If muse means what I think it does, then I have plenty.

Well, to start off, a muse is something that is your artistic inspiration.

Since I’ve been dealing with writer’s block this past week, I’ve been watching a lot of television.

Oh how I love television. Always have, always will. This is my 1st muse.

Watching an episode of Glee or Law and Order sometimes sparks my creative juices.

I haven’t shared my love for television much on my blog, but I can say many of my recent posts have been inspired from my television set.

TV calms me. It’s escapism at it’s finest. I sit down in front of the television and it’s like I can forget about stuff for a few hours.

Music is my 2nd muse. I’ve loved music all my life as well. I have a guitar but I don’t play it often. I have countless CDs and songs fill my iPod.

Listening to music soothes me in a way also. I wake up and put on a CD or turn on the radio.

I can spend all day and night watching videos on Youtube also.

I’m not a musician, but I greatly appreciate those that are. It’s quite a skill to be able to put pen to paper and make a chart topping hit.

My third muse is books. I’m an avid reader. Nonfiction, fiction, crime, fantasy. I read all of them. Reading books is a good way to spark my creative side too.

So television, music, and books are my muses. They each inspire me in their own way. Writer’s block is the devil, but when I have TV, music, and a book, I’m bound to come up with something.