Christmas is next Monday. Wow, it seems like December just flew on by. As the year winds down, I am trying to remain positive and steadfast. It has been cold this month, but no snow yet. Work is okay, but I’ve been looking for a change of pace. I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like if things had gone differently back in the day. I know I cannot change the past, but sometimes I wonder.

There is a quote that says the path forward begins with a single step. Problem is, what happens when you are afraid to make that single step? What happens when you don’t know what step to take? Taking a leap of faith is easy when you have the time, money, and support. What happens when you feel like you don’t have those things? What happens when you feel you can’t share things with people because you fear they won’t support you?

Being your own cheerleader gets tiring. Hyping yourself up gets old. So, what do you do now? Where do you go from here? None of these questions have one single answer. None of these questions have clear instructions. Anyone reading this will probably answer each of these questions in their own ways, based off their own personal experiences.

I know that I ultimately have to answer these questions on my own and in my own time, but that doesn’t take away from the stress of it. I hope to be able to gain some clarity in due time.